| Dec. 17th, 2008 @ 07:53 pm Thanks for the Kind Words |
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Current Mood:  crushed
...from my post about my failed relationship. You're both right, I should not give up or let it get the best of me. Probably the worst thing I could do is let the experience become emotional baggage that gets in the way of my next relationship. Then I would be no better off than the guy who dumped me (who let his issues get in the way of us).
It would seem, in retrospect, there is a silver lining to failed relationships. In coping with a loss, I am spurred onto a new endeavor--whether it be returning to school or taking on a new hobby--that opens up a new world of possibilities. After a few years of dabbling in the modeling for fun, I've been wanting to leave the computer programming field to do something more artistic and fulfilling. I was not successful at programming since I graduated 10 years ago anyway. (Graduating suma cum laude was the highlight of my career. How pathetic is that?)
I am now hopeful for admission into a rather expensive makeup certification program. Cosmetology may be my next endeavor after that--or a BA in Fine Arts specializing in Design in Performance (the artistic work that goes into a stage or photo shoot production--makeup, hair, wardrobe, lighting, scenology, etc). But small steps are my best bet right now.
It's taking an immense amount of willpower not to put in my 2 weeks notice and cash in the retirement to pay for retraining and a new life altogether. |
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